A Draft of Unexpressed Feelings?

There are two types of people- One,  who execute their bucket lists. Two, who don't. Me? I probably fall in the second category simply because.... let's just say I was too shy or scared perhaps? A bucket list is simple, or at least I thought that it is supposed to be, right? Movies, books, and stories, and people play a huge role in inspiring us to do exhilarating stuff that they say is possible during our "Golden Days" A.K.A "Schooldays" because everything is possible during this time right?

But not everything "they" - the people, throw at us is true. If you don't trust me, trust your heart... It never lies. Some people just like bluffing and bragging, to rub their supposed "superiority" on our faces. I do know that there are a lot of people out there who give advice because they have had their experiences and stuff and am definitely not saying that first-hand experiences don't exist. All I am saying is that most of them lie about their enjoyable and superior moments just to seem, well, cool, and whatnot. What do you think?

"Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans" - John Lennon.

 It's difficult to accept what life throws our way most of the time, especially when everything is going smoothly because smooth is easy and simple, right?. But the point is, Don't we all create bucket lists to make our life exciting because we think it isn't? (And there we go... hypocrites we become because we want both things at the same time) The answer to the question is definitely not straight forward but don't worry I do have something for you ;).We all know for a fact that our practical self doe not really allow us to explore what's beyond our "supposed" boundaries (I'm talking about the fun aspect here..not the Einstein or Newton-type explore your boundaries...you get it right?) that we have created for ourselves, not consciously, mostly, which is why we choose to depend on bucket lists to loosen up and create memories worth a lifetime. Exciting isn't it? 

But were you ever scared when you thought about the consequences of exploring beyond the great wall that separates you from the excitements of the world? Or were you scared of what people might think of you if you tried doing things you want that "they" don't? (Oh, I must add that these "they" are literally the root to almost every problem, now aren't they?)

 The idea of being judged just because you want to do something you haven't done before or something which is completely insane is goosebumps worthy for some reason. The whole idea of not having friends and social life because of how your choices appear to them is scary, isn't it? But you know what? That's what outsiders do to make you seem like you are not good enough and a misfit (when they are the ones who want to fit in the most and try to create a shell for themselves...), which you totally aren't! And now the big question is does this have any god damn thing to do with your bucket list? Hell yea!! But wait up! Is it fair to generalize a bucket list? I don't think so.

No matter what age group you fit in....the odds of finding people who loathe you (for some unknown reason) never decrease you know? There is always a part of us that doesn't give a damn about what others think about them, but again there also lives a hollow and frightened part which usually out shadows the light and optimism in us and in some ways...I think that it is our fault.

The brain is our only prison and surprisingly we also hold the keys of the prison, it is just that we don't really see it. Okay, now let's just say that our heart plans a treasure hunt for the brain so that it can find its way out of the prison, by finding the key using a set of clues and hints and I think the best analogy for the clues is our lovely little bucket list. What's more exciting than a treasure hunt huh? (Okay, there could be more exciting stuff...but just go with the flow okay?)

Now, all we have to do is figure out those clues and execute them, right? Ummm...but  I think we might just have our troublesome little opposition waiting for us in the department of optimism and adventures-THE FEAR OF WHAT-IFS.

To be continued...

Until next time,

With love,

Moon.

P.S. Just to be on the clearer side... I am nobody to comment on other's experiences and feelings but what I do know is how I have seen things around me and I am merely just portraying that on my canvas. I also know that a lot of things revolving around my idea of "bucket lists" and many more aren't clear yet and that's exactly what I'll be talking about it in-depth in the next ones. (You do need to understand that the topic I am emphasizing isn't just a one-page essay, there is a variety of versions to it and I am just getting started.) 

P.P.S This barely even qualifies as a blog as of now but bear with me, Please? at least until I figure out how blogs actually work. Come back for part 2! I don't know when I'll publish part 2, hopefully soon and I'll also try making it short, that is,  if you like short. :)

P.P.P.S Please do leave comments down below and let me know all that you think of my first piece! and...... if you've made it this far with or without cringing, all I'd say is that I really love you so much more than I already did since you first clicked on the link!